My First Blog

So I got to thinking that I've always liked to blog, why not blog online? So, I'm finally starting. My life has changed so much recently. It's been really wonderful. Every change that has happened has been so important to me. I'm finally back in college. That's huge for me. I finally have new aspirations and goals. I have a new son. Samuel James Fezler. He means the World to me, along with Matty, too. I work at a job that I actually like, even though it has life forms more resembling rocks than actual people with personalities. That's okay though. I'll have a better job once I graduate, I'm sure. Right now I'm at home alone. I hate being alone, I always scare myself into thinking that there will be a drive by shooting or something every time I stand by a window (right... in Pease...). Nonetheless I end up scaring myself hence why I'm still up.

I started a stretegies for success class at NAU. I think it's changing my life. I'm starting to think differently about myself and see the World in a new light. I really like it. I'm finally starting to realize what I'm capable of in life. It's also interesting to learn how much our surroundings impact who we become.

It was pure chance that I ended up going to NAU. I happened to have been really stressed out one Saturday night with Sammy. He was fussing a ton and he wouldn't go to sleep. So I had finally gotten him asleep and I ran to the computer to look for a school and NAU came up so I requested info. I didn't even get finished typing my information in before Sammy started crying again. I was so stressed out it was unbelievable. Either way, I applied. I knew that if I couldn't get through applying, there was no way that I would be able to handle school, so right from the start I changed the way I was thinking about life. Anyways, I'm in Business Administration with an emphasis on International Business. I'm mostly interested in the International part. Things that I don't know a lot about interest me a ton.

I really have to thank Matty for getting me to go back to school. He told me that he wished I would have stayed in school... which I know doesn't seem like a ton to do, but I didn't know it even bothered him. I didn't want to go to school because it was so much money I really thought it would put us way behind. Knowing that he wants me to follow my dreams is an incredible feeling. I feel like with Matty everything's possible.