Scotomas and self talk

What I love about NAU is my Strategies for Success class. It's a lot of reading and can actually be boring at times, but I love what it teaches you. It teaches things that we should learn in Elementary School, and it would change a lot of peoples lives if they understood the concepts. I never knew what a scotoma was a month ago. Well, I knew the concept of it but had never actually heard the term. A scotoma is a "blind spot" that each of us have. My blind spots were huge at work... I never realized before this course how negative my boss was along with my coworkers. It's no wonder that it took six weeks of maternity leave away from them all to realize that I wasn't doing what I wanted to, my mind was so filled with negativity, and I had changed SO much since I had started. They still don't realize how positive I used to be, how much I actually enjoyed coming to work rather than dreaded it. I finally started to think about what my dreams are. My ultimate dream: own and operate a charity. I knew it wasn't going to happen until I had something more than my current job.

I know what my dream is, but I don't do a ton to actually get there. I love to volunteer my time, but I haven't volunteered in over three years. That's insane! I wonder if there are any volunteer oportunities you can bring your children to. I don't think it'd be an issue if Sammy was older, but he's only two months! And I don't really want to spend time away from him. I know I'm a lame mom that doesn't want to leave her baby but I only see him about four hours a day the way it is, I'd love to have more time to play with him and see his cute smile. My dream has always been to build some kind of a housing area where you can create jobs for people that have had a hard time. Get them started and help them realize what their true potential is.

I was really lucky growing up. I had a mom and a dad who loved me a great deal, and the rest of my family life was good. And I still never realized my potential. I always had low self esteem and I never had confidence in anything I did. I never even imagined that I would actually go through with trying to succeed in my dreams. It has taken this class to do that for me. To help me realize that I am actually fully capable of fulfilling my dreams.